POETRY

POETRY

BY TAYLOR MARIE CONTARINO

Poem 1

Loving In My Generation

By Taylor Marie Contarino

we don't say how we feel

and we don’t communicate openly

we don’t talk about the stuff that is real

and deep down, we feel brokenly

but I yearn for something else, hopingly.

we let fear overtake us and we run away

losing people that we love, that’s the price that we pay

seeing each other, not knowing what to say

ignoring each other, though we pass each other every single day.

we go from knowing everything about someone's life

to feeling pain and strife

when we look them in the eyes

knowing deep down, they were our demise

we don’t use our words

or say how we actually feel

because love could lead to heartbreak

and that's something with which we don’t wanna deal.

we remove each other from stories

we want to make a point

and we block each other on social media

although our souls once were joint

we go from being ingrained

in each others lives

to telling our friends lies and lies like

Girl, I'm fiiiiiiine.

we're afraid of words

because we don’t want to give too much of our selves.

we put our feelings on a shelf.

when deep down, our souls are crying for help.

You know, Drake once said,

“We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together

But we sure make it feel like we're together

'Cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else.”

maybe love would be a whole lot less hard

if we stopped playing games

and stopped misplacing blame

started taking accountability

stopped playing with each other hearts like monopoly

Poem 2

What I'm Looking For

By Taylor Marie Contarino

we don't say how we feel

and we don’t communicate openly

we don’t talk about the stuff that is real

and deep down, we feel brokenly

but I yearn for something else, hopingly.

we let fear overtake us and we run away

losing people that we love, that’s the price that we pay

seeing each other, not knowing what to say

ignoring each other, though we pass each other every single day.

we go from knowing everything about someone's life

to feeling pain and strife

when we look them in the eyes

knowing deep down, they were our demise

we don’t use our words

or say how we actually feel

because love could lead to heartbreak

and that's something with which we don’t wanna deal.

we remove each other from stories

we want to make a point

and we block each other on social media

although our souls once were joint

we go from being ingrained

in each others lives

to telling our friends lies and lies like

Girl, I'm fiiiiiiine.

we're afraid of words

because we don’t want to give too much of our selves.

we put our feelings on a shelf.

when deep down, our souls are crying for help.

You know, Drake once said,

“We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together

But we sure make it feel like we're together

'Cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else.”

maybe love would be a whole lot less hard

if we stopped playing games

and stopped misplacing blame

started taking accountability

stopped playing with each other hearts like monopoly

Poem 3

Poetry (???)

By Taylor Marie Contarino

you don't know what love is

and i don't know how to fix the

hitch in my throat

that arises when i try to define it

you don't know what affection is

and i don't know how to be with you if you

can’t deliver on false promises that you

promised when you were in a good mood

you don't know what

patience is

and you dont understand when

i tell you about my anxiety

and i can't be with someone who can't be patient with me

because i can't be with someone who can't even notice it

when i'm putting my heart on my sleeve

and working so, so, goddamn hard just to achieve

reassurance from someone who doesn’t know how to love someone properly.

and you still text me

and i still reply

because i’m still working on being strong

and i know what i deserve

I know its a learning curve

and i know i'll get there

because i deserve the sun, the stars, the moon, and the universe

but you can't even give me you.

there are a multitude of forces in the universe from wind to earth to fire to water

and you cant even give me time.

Poem 4

Thorns On A Rose

By Taylor Marie Contarino

Thorns On A Rose

I can't believe I thought you were different

You turned around and proved me wrong

Can't believe I thought I could change you

You were never gonna change all along.

You don’t know accountability

Who’s gonna call you out?

You don’t know responsibility

Someone’s gotta air you out

You act like I can trust you

But you do nothing to prove it

Every time I think you gain it

You fuck around and lose it

I don’t even let love in like that

You think you a player- Nah, you just up to bat.

You think you could bag a bitch

But I know you just wanna hit.

I can't believe I thought you were different

You turned around and proved me wrong

Can't believe I thought I could change you

You were never gonna change all along.

I saw the red flags

But I ignored all the signs

I wished them away

Like thorns on rose vines

I let my guard down

Gave you the benefit of the doubt

I thought you had morals

But you prioritize your clout.

And I’m not mad that I have a soft heart

I’m just mad that I let you in & it's tearing me apart.

& I’m just mad I stayed on the phone with you for five hours

Making you feel like you have some power

& I’m just hurt that I keep going in circles with myself

Morals, ethics, I pushed them to a shelf

For the sake of giving you my trust

And with that, all I was rewarded with was lust.

I can't believe I thought you were different

You turned around and proved me wrong

Can't believe I thought I could change you

You were never gonna change all along.